To: Sean-Allen.

Dear Sean-Allen, 

I never even got the chance to meet you. ....I can't imagine what it must have been like for my mom to had to have you come out of her....dead. (A miscarriage.)  My entire life...I have always wanted and needed a big brother. Often, I wonder what it would be like. To have you with me. To see you. To know you. I need a big brother. A big brother to protect me as one would. I miss you. And I don't even know you. I wish you were here with me right now. Things....are just....horrid. Deeply horrid. Mom and dad might be separating, not divorced, but separating. Nicole doesn't know what's been going on...or maybe "dad" told her.. I really don't know.   I believe you know these words of mine before I even type them. But I know you are listening in Heaven. And I need to write this to you. So here I am. The guy who I am in love with......loves and even likes someone else. And that kills me to no end. Nicole and I....used to be Bestfriend's. And now we are entirely strangers. Mom and "dad" are not in love....they don't even like each other. I was going through some old photograph's two nights ago...and I found some of their old love letters. And that just broke my heart more-so than it already is. God. I really wish you were here. .....Alive on earth............With me. I wish you and I could be Bestfriend's. Inseparable. But...that wasn't God's plan..... I just need to say that I need you, Sean. I need a big brother. I love you...... I have no idea.....what you would have looked like....or been like............ I have no idea if you would have liked to read as much as I do, or write as much as I do, or if you would have liked the same music as me. I wonder what your favorite color might have been. I wonder about you so much. I need you so much.  ..........I wish you were alive, Sean. And I know no matter how much I say that......it won't become true. You won't appear here by my bed. You won't just.....come back to life......... I shouldn't even think about that.... But listen, I love you. And I really wish I could have seen you....even if only for two minutes.....     I don't know you, but I miss you. I love you. And I always will.

From: Your little sister, Krystal Danielle Outfleet. 

More Things About Me.

#1. I eat the paper from Pixie Stixx candy. :p.
#2. I eat jello with a straw most times.
#3. I hate orange juice.
#4. I hate strawberry icecream and strawberry milk too.
#5. My favorite icecream is Mint Chocolate Chip or Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.
#6. I used to play Nancy Drew computer games. I still would. :). My favorite one is "Danger on Deception Island."
#7. If I had to choose three restaurants to eat at for the rest of my entire life they would be: #1. Olive Garden. #2. In-N-Out. #3. Long John Silver's (but only because of their chicken and cole-slaw.)
#8. A pinball machine (I haven't decided which one yet.
#9. I want to own a Water-bed. :p.
#10. I like listening to talk-radio. (A.M. talk radio.) It's lovely.
#11. I have some of "The Twilight Zone" audio episodes on my Zune.
#12. I have two favorite symbols. An anchor and a key.